You've planted the seed of what you want to be. In this case, a mighty Oak. But, all you see is ruff dirt, little rocks and uneven ground, and some mud from the water you sprinkled over it. It definitely doesn't look like the awesome, massive, oak tree that it will be someday.
None the less.....it is growing whether we SEE it or not.
Pretty soon, it peeks out and you can see a little green. Not much, just a little.
But as the Sun shines down daily on it to provide what it needs, and the Water flows over it to cleanse away debris and cause it to grow stronger every day...it becomes more and more like that oak tree that you planted.
You can actually start to SEE it.
God is changing you JUST LIKE THAT. Give it time. Don't despise small beginnings. You are like the Bur Oak Tree that takes the length of a human lifetime to reach maturity.
All of us are like the Bur Oak Tree. All of us will need a lifetime of help from God.
Happy growing!